life is precious: rinduu yg tramat sngt

hello !
hye . hye . everyone. . miss me? ckp je la rinduu . .ak pon miss korang jgak. . so cm na korang skrg lepas bkak skolah? mesti borink an . klu minta pndpat ak of coz tk best ! nnti tk leh dh bngon lewat . .tk suka nyer . . :( huhu . tpi bkn psl nh ak nk ckp. ak nk ckp psal my BELOVED EX ever. .

okeh . sbnarnya ak rinduu sngt ngn ex ak . . he is such a lovely n honest guy .mmg pyah klu nk dpt guy mcm nyh . klu ada pon msti sgelintir ja ada. but since last week kpala hotak ak nyh asyik tringat dye jew . . i don't know why .. mybe bcause i still love him ? i miss his face, his laughing, his voice n miss our date. .every time ak dngar lagu ksukaan dye msti ak nangis . .mesti kah itu brlaku ? i cry until my eyes is like a korean eyes . . mata sepek gler .

for your guys infrmation ak kapel ngn dye almost 3 years . .plbagai hlangn dn rntangan kmi tumpuhi . akhirnya trbengkalai jgak our rlationship . even my family and his family knew about it . we never secret anything . if i have problems he always talk smoothly with me . . always make dcision together. he never want me to cry . he said i look ugly when crying . haha . .u know what he never scold me either ! never . . thats why i love and miss him so much . . really2 miss him . we always spend our time at my house . almost three times a week he came . another two days we spend at his house .

his mother is really2 nice towards me . he always take care about me like i am her daughter altough our relationship is over . almost every two weeks she called utk taw keadaan ak baik ke tk kt sini . she also gave me neclace yg tulis hruf 'W' smpana nma pnggilan my ex, wan . .i really2 miss them all expcially AMIRUL SYAZWAN . this is the thing i'll never forget untill death . even when my mother died he always there for me . . always wipe my tears n always be were i am . . he and his fmily always gave me support . he always said that 'smua yg kita impikan tk slalu indah and kita hrus hdapinya dgn tabah n slalu fkir ke depan klu hndak buat ssuatu dcision' . . i always rmember it . the more i rmember, the more pain i feel . .

why do i suffer like this ? i don't want to cry anymore . the more i think about him the more pain i feel . i feel that i want to beg him to accept me again . our rlationship ends here bcause of my stupid dcision . i didn't think about myself . i just only think about him . .his future ! i don't want his future destroy bcause of me . .i don't want that happen . ak break pon psal ak ingat he still love his secret admire . . smpai skrg pon ak still ingt dye syang lagi kt minah tuh . . thats why ak lpaskan dye . ak tk nk rosakkn kbahgian dye untk mncari pndamping elok hanya krna untk kpentingan ak sndiri wlaupun secret admire dye is my friend . .

skrg biarlah apa pon yg berlaku . . buat masa skrg biarlah ia brlalu wlaupun ia sngt mnyakitkn .. knangan mngajar kita hidup bdikari . pi satu ja ak tk leh lupa ialah kenangan ktka brsamnya . . i am so sooo sorry bcause kali nyh crita ak nyh pnjg skit .mklumlah nk luah prsaan skit~ nyh adah skit2 gmbar dye . . sorry i cannot put my picture with him bcause it is too private . .